去新加坡之前，从没意识到自己的形象是怎么样的。4年之后，突然发现原来我给人的感觉和自己以为的大相径庭。

我看自己
一直以为自己是那种很独立的，非常友善随和的人。长着一张极为普通的脸，上课时认真的表情让老师毫无疑问地把我归入好学生的行列。在 家中我是个乖宝宝，认认真真地听爸爸妈妈的话，不挑吃不挑穿，极少跟他们争辩。他们讲道理的时候我总是专注地聆听，努力地执行他们所教的种种。在新加坡四 年后，我还一度学得自己有长大了，成熟了。可现在看来，现有的有关我形象的种种论调，完完全全地颠覆了我对自己的认识。

木衲茫然论
从 来都没有想到自己居然会让人觉得很木衲,很blur.一切都是那该死的呆板的眼神惹的祸。据老妈总结，都是从3岁就开始戴眼镜一代就带将近20年导致双眼 无神所引起的。想当初上生物可是我正非常全神贯注地听Mrs sandy tan讲课，拿个眼神不是热切地对知识的渴求怎么也应该是聚精会神的吧。结果老师很好心地问我“do you understand?" 之后还解释似的加了一句“how come look so blur?" 让我巨无语。之后这种论调就频频地得到证实。现在连爸爸妈妈在“教育 ”完我之后都要加一句“怎么说了那么多你就一脸茫然，什么话都没有？ ”唉，我可是在虚心地接受教训，对你们的话极其认可，还有什么要说的？

黑脸论
当 面无表情到一定程度时就发展为了凶神恶煞。一切从去年开始。我在精音华乐团帮忙，由于其他的bass player不是文工团的就是大学生，无法按时排练，我就常常成了一枝独秀。想我那么乖的小孩自然就是认认真真一丝不苟地排练了。音乐让我放松，所以我的 面部表情就是最最自然的状态，所有肌肉都是放松的。结果另一个bass player一次问我为什么总是板着脸，说他的朋友觉得我很凶，而且不是一般的凶而是要扁人一般。说的严重到...我都很无语。当然之后我也接到过类似的“投诉 ”。程度甚至从扁人到杀人，反正让我大受打击。

名人脸论
当 然不是事事都不顺心。生活还是美好的。不是说生活中不是缺少美丽的东西，而是缺少发现美的眼睛吗？我身边就有几双会发现美的眼睛~~呵呵，有人说我在华乐 演奏会时拍的照片上笑的样子看上去像杉菜（请参照大S演的版本）。从去年开始还有同学说我长得貌似或神似徐静蕾呢（注意注意，是〉1人如是说）。把我美的 自恋指数increase exponentially！


小女人论
若 说名人脸论让我惊喜，那小女人论就让我颇为摸不着头脑。有同学如是总结：“你说你人长得就单薄（指我从侧面看上去很纤细），说话还细声细气的（并非我有意 把自己培养成淑女，实在是小时候没有掌握好发生技巧，从不会所谓的丹田发气，只会用嗓子发音,所以貌似声音经常很小声而本人却一点意识都没有...)，人 又温柔（这点我承认），典型的中国小女人！ ”

慈祥论
说着我人温柔，就会讲到我从去年起就一直被几位rj的同学叫姐姐。那个汗的。尤其是被比我打一点点的同学（还是美女来着）这样叫着，很诡异。一开始想想知心姐姐之类的也就算了，后来经提醒意识到世界上还有芙蓉姐姐之类的“姐姐 ”的存在，狂汗

小孩论
被 人叫着姐姐刚刚习惯，最近新近崛起的大有后来者居上的小孩论令我一下子无法适应。好吧，我承认，我的确看上去很naive,思想比较childlike， 爱好也是如此，可是我20了呀！！！！还有1.66的身高优势呢！最无语的是上次跟我妈去南苑的游泳池问了一下学游泳的事，结果交游泳的漂亮姐姐一听就已 很肯定的语气说 ：“你是要中考是吧，没问题的。 ”后面那半句是很好的，可前面的...中考啊，都是近5年之前的事了。今天早上和我妈乘电梯去餐厅吃早餐，很负责任的宾馆服务员帮忙按了电梯键，然后笑着 对我妈说 ：“您女儿那么小就给你帮忙啦..." 最后电梯来了之后还总结性的加了一句起强调性作用的话“您女儿真的好小哦！”看看，连“看起来 ”都省了。差点没忍住好奇心问问她觉得我是几岁。

     By merely looking at the title, I initially thought that the movie Scent of A Woman is a romantic story. Only after watching it, I realize what a meaningful, educational and inspiring movie it is. Scent of A Woman tells the story of Frank Slade (Pacino), a blind, retired army colonel who hires Charlie Simms (Chris O'Donnell), a poor private preparatory school student who needs to earn the money for his flight home for Christmas, to take care of him over Thanksgiving weekend. At the beginning of the weekend, Frank takes Charlie to New York, where he reveals to the student that he intends to visit his family, have a few terrific meals, sleep with a beautiful woman and, finally, commit suicide. The film follows the mis-matched pair over the course of the weekend, as they learn about life through their series of adventures.

Even though the movie focuses more on the character Lieutenant Colonel Frank Slade by illustrating the huge contrast between his harsh, crude manner and inner sensitivity so as to show his loneliness and desperation, I am more concerned with Charlie’s problem. Some fellow students of Charlie’s have played a prank on the school's headmaster, and only Charlie and George Willis, Jr. (Philip Seymour Hoffman) know the identity of the culprits. After threatening both with expulsion, Headmaster tries to bribe Charlie by assuring him admission to Harvard if he names those who committed the prank. Charlie rejects his offer and refuses to rat out his classmates over a prank. Even on the courtroom-like assembly where Willis, with the help of his influential father, manages to get out the trouble and betrayed Charlie by claiming to be only partially certain of the culprits' identity, suggesting that Charlie had a better view than he did, Charlie sticks to his principle and tells nothing. His loyalty towards his classmates enrages the headmaster and is about to be expelled.
 
      While watching that part of the movie, I felt sorry for Charlie. I couldn’t help thinking why he acts so stubbornly and is willing to cover his classmates, who are not even considered his friends, for their wrong doings at the expense of his own future. To me, there is nothing wrong to name the identities of the culprits as they should shoulder responsibilities for their own misbehavior. Perhaps Charlie feels uncomfortable and immoral to betray his classmates. However, it is not rational to sacrifice his future for people who do not deserve his loyalty. Moreover, morally and theoretically speaking, one is not supposed to help the guilty ones escape from their wrong doings. Let alone the attractive prize—the admission to Harvard—assured by the headmaster.

 I do not really agree with Charlie’s acts. So should he just tell the names of the culprits? What will happen if he said yes to the headmaster’s offer? What if he confirmed Willis’ list of “possible culprits”? The most immediate effects would be Charlie being complimented for his honesty and being able to continue his study in the school with aid and scholarship. If the headmaster keeps his promise, he can also obtain the ticket to Harvard.

 But will everything run so smoothly? All the misbehaved students have rich and powerful fathers, some of which are the main contributors to the school. They can easily stay in the school without suffering too severe punishment. It must be awkward for Charlie to meet them or study with after the incident. In worse cases, they may spread rumors against Charlie, portraying him as a filthy snitch and take revenge on him. Given Charlie’s soft nature and kind-heartedness, I do not think he can deal with such situations well.

 In my opinion, Charlie should act less straight forward but in trickier way. He can confess that he did saw the figures of those culprits but could not recognize them as they were too far away and it was impossible for him to distinguish them in the dark. That explanation sounds more rational and acceptable.

 Luckily, Colonel Slade has come to be by his side, delivers a compelling speech on Charlie’s behalf. He reveals that Charlie has been offered a bribe to inform on his friends. When Slade says, "If I were the man I was five years ago, I'd take a flame thrower to this place," he wins over the students and the committee reviewing the case. Finally, the three young men who pulled the prank on the headmaster are placed on disciplinary probation and Charlie is exonerated. I am glad to see such a happy ending.

 

Ever since I registered as a user of the xiaonei, I kind of forget that I still have a blog here. So just come back to update.

Hoo~~everybody, MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!
除去刚来的三个月不算，今年是我在新加坡过的第一个圣诞节。想想往年的这时候应该在爸爸妈妈身边吧。昨天中午妈妈发短信来说她和爸爸正在PIZZA HUT 迟SALAD。那不是存心要我羡慕他们吗。幸好宿舍里来有一些朋友陪我。昨天晚上和SJ一起去pizza hut饱餐了一顿，之后再popular闲逛了一小会儿，还在回宿舍的路上买了雪糕吃。晚了一整晚，心中就平衡了一些。呵呵~~

还有啊，要祝所有在新加坡或回中国的朋友圣诞节快乐哦。